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Sunday, March 04, 2007

Sun, 04 Mar 2007 08:52:07 GMT

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Friday, November 17, 2006

Fri, 17 Nov 2006 14:05:04 GMT

Okay so it's time for a update! Big time! So much has been going on have been so busy! Now things are slowing down besides the holidays! Cannot wait to wakeup @ 4am to hit the day after Thanksgiving Sales! Yes I do that! hehe. Anyways just living one day @ a time trying to make the best out of what I have! Lifes been stressful lately, but just try to hold all these feelings in & not let them show! I think it's better that way. Well Hope that all you guys are doing well & enjoy the pictures! Until next entry!

Me & Papi

Missy & Minh

Me & Victoria

Emmy, Ayden, & Dung

Missy, Emmy, Me, & Jenny

Quinn pimpin w/LyLy

My wonderful BEAUTIFUL family!

Ethan & Me

My Wonderful family once again!

Kiss, Kiss! Congratulations you guys! Now Babies!?

My Hubby's Family

What is my brother doing? (Ethan & Quinn)

Ah ha! Quinn Pimpin again w/ Linda

Linda & Hai

Vy & Vy (no not a typo!)

Vy, Lien, Victoria, & Me

Happy Halloween! (^_^)

My protector! My Little Ninja!

My Power Ranger & Little Ninja!

Imma Cool Dude!

Smile!

Once More for Daddy!

xoxo

Sunday, October 15, 2006

Sun, 15 Oct 2006 04:10:45 GMT

xoxo

Hmmm.....I guess that it's about time that I update my Xanga huh? Well I am a little well actually a lot late on photos! I never posted Ethan's 1st Birthday pictures! So hope that you guys enjoy them! Well as of me life is pretty much on the same level as it was before. Everytime I do say though that it will get better something happens that makes me think differently. So just say I am content I guess. My kids are happy. So I am happy. Well haven't been doing much lately. Just going crazy looking for a dress for my hubby's brothers wedding! Gosh how hard could it be just to find a dress! Speaking of finding! GUESS WHAT I FOUND?!?! I was shopping at ROSS in Houma the other day & I found SEVEN JEANS!!! OMG!!! $24.99!!!! I WAS FLABBERGASTED!!! I was so happy, BUT they were a size 27. I was telling myself I am going to make these jeans fit dammit!!! Well my scranny butt didn't fit them by a long shot!!!! I bought them anyways! Figured some person could use them & that I could make a profit off of them on EBAY! =D Well that was the highlight of my week! Other than that staying at home watching Ethan running around being spoiled!!! Well I am short or time & I will hurry & post these pictures! =D Well hope that all is well! Best wishes to all! xoxo

The Very disappointing $55.00 cake from GAMBINO'S!!

The cake I baked & decorated for ETHAN!

MY FIRST RIDE!!! (~.^)

xoxo

Thursday, September 07, 2006

Thu, 07 Sep 2006 12:20:03 GMT

Wow sitting here & actually typing a real blog for once. Gosh thinking about how life was in the past, all the drama, & heartbreak that I have been through. And then now my situation & my environment. Dang I really believe a certain someone that once told me that I must of have really done something really horrible in my past life that is why life is so horrible now. How could one endure all this? I can only say it was all by my choice & me always being the "nice girl". I remember back then when I used to say for my New Year's resoluation that I would be mean for the New Year!! Hahaha! Ya, I am a bitch at times & a butt munch, but when it counts the most I don't put myself first. Just thinking about a few years ago when I was with first b/f. Wow I would have never pictured me ever moving on back then. But I did & that is really history. I put that nigga behind me. Can I do that again? I would love more than anything for this relationship to work. It could work if I let it. Sometimes though ones past is to bad to let go though. If not now, later..... I don't think that we will make it. What my husband did to me... I could never let go. Ya I know that saying if it's true love let it go! But people you guys have no idea what he done to me! Let's just say if he walked up to me in the mall or something and slapped me in the face that would of hurt my pride less. How could someone that loved you so much put you through so much & make off to be a fool! I was by his side through everything that I stated in our vows. Why freaking marry me if you were just bullshitting? Day by day I think about how everyday I have to live with the mistakes he has made & what he done to me! I shouldn't have to live with that! He should! I shouldn't be the one depressed for what he has done! I really think that my emotional health & mental sanity would be at best if I was to leave. I am tired of these tears. I just want to let go. So much keeps me here though. If I was to make the choice by not putting anyone first, but myself I would have done left by now. Yes, the kids do come first now though. But I am not only putting them first I am putting my husband & his family first too. Through all the bull I still seem to puts all of them first. Why? I guess I just have to wait for that oneday when I finally decide what is best for my kids. And take it from there. I have made things to complicated. I wish it could be eaiser. Like then....Four years ago all I did was work & play! Right when the weekend would come I would head down to New Orleans to go out! This was my second home. And now that I am actually living in this area, it's not what I wanted. I wish I was anywhere , but here! I have takin so many wrong turns in life. But hey I have two wonderful kids to show for it! And I love them like there's no tomorrow! Mistakes? Regrets? I don't consider anything as a mistake because I would not have my kids if it wasn't for these choices. Regrets? I used to think why regret what you cannot change. There is only one regret now. Not staying true to my real friends.All the people that was there for me through all the tears & heartache. I pushed aside. I recently wrote a letter two the two my two friends that meant to most to me. I would still be stuck in my first relationship if these to ladies didnt give me that courage to be stronger. I won't mention names because you guys may get mad if I do so. I will use our code names from back in the day! As for "Angel" You were my friend my best friend for so long. You gave me that edge that I needed! You introduced me to a whole new world out there. You that part of me that kept me going when I felt that I couldn't survive. I know that nothing will ever bring us back together as friends. If anyones knows you thats me & you hold grudges! haha I guess I get that from you. You were my teacher & I was your grasshopper. I thank you for all that you've showed me. I wrote a letter to you recently I have a idea that you just looked at it and threw it away or matter of fact said you didnt even want it! Wish things could be different.......And as for "Charlie" I wrote you a letter as well, but you didn't recieve it. I will write what I had to say here since I know you still come by my xanga time to time. You and I weren't close from the beggining like "Angel" & I, but then as time went by we got closer. Together you & your sister made me a whole. You guys was a part of me that made me who I am today. I am truly sorry for what I did. My only regrets in life is losing you & your sisters friendship. I would do anything to get back what we had. I would put my pride beside and get on my knees to beg for forgiveness. That's how sorry I am. I know that nothing could take back what I did. I pushed you away. I know that life was crazy. I was hiding out and all, but I could of called. I should of called more than I did. I was just scared. You & your sister always told me straight up what you guys felt. I was scared of that. I know that no matter what asshole I dated though and what wrong path I took. You guys would scold me, but then you were still there for me. I got back with him through everything & ended up having Ethan. I wish I would have just picked up the phone & just called. No matter what I would hear on the other end. So much time has gone by & I still miss you! I wish that I could prove to you someway or somehow that I was truly sorry & have what we...all of us had again! I know it wouldn't be the same but a basic friendship is all I would ask for right now. You have gone through so much & so have I. I wish that I could have been there for you all this time that we weren't together. Other than my kids and family I loved you guys most! Although it may not seem like it even more than guys as well! I wish there was someway in your heart that you could forgive me. I still care for you and "Angel" so much! I miss the mumchkin too! I bet she's big now! So much I have missed out on because of my choices. I hope that you read this. I hope that you still care. ~*Hugs*~ "Bunnie". (You know Cuong calls me Snuggle Bunnie. I just found out last month he called me that because you guys called me bunnie.)

Anyways...wow what a entry huh? Is anyone going to actually read all of this? Thanks if ya do! I thank all of you wonderful people that do take the time to read all my entries and give me your encouraging words & support. Means a lot to me! Well I got to go do my mommy duties now. Hope all is well....xoxo

NOTE: If some of you are wondering why I keep these poems or this entry the same it's because I still feel the same way that I did when I wrote them.

xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

I know that it's the past, but it still hurts me within.

The lying, the cheating, all of your sins.

I care for you deeply.

I gave you my heart and soul.

I threw away so much just so that I could be with you.

I pushed my true friends away just to put a smile on your face.

I would of walked around the world to prove my love to you.

Yet while I was true to you.

You took my love for granted and stabbed me in the back.

Right in plan site all of the signs where there.

Deep inside I always knew the truth, but to finally hear it come from you...

That moment my whole world just crumbled away.

A part of me lost within never to be found again.

Sitting here I feel so empty, but yet I am filled with so much pain.

So much time has passed since you were unfaithful to me.

Can someone like you really change?

On the outside you seem brand new, but deep within is it the old you?

I wish that life was easier, but now it is more than just you and I.

I have someone else to think about now I have to think about our son.

Do I do what's right for him and stay with you?

Or do I care about myself and leave you?

So much to think of not only of me this time.

All of this pain inside is slowly killing me.

I try so hard to hold on to what you and I have, but my heart won't seem to let go of the past.

Do I move forward with you and try to better our future?

I wish the answer were so simple.

I wish that I could just get over you.

xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

After all of the things you have done put me through, I still stand right beside you.

Through all of the pain & suffering somehow I still seem to love you.

So much hurt fills me within.

How could my heart endure so much pain?

Emotionally, physically how am I still sane?

I guess that I am stronger than what I seem. Strong enough to hold it in.

Walking with my head held high trying so hard not to cry.

It’s so hard sometimes to keep all these emotions held in.

Sometimes I wish that I could just let these real feelings show.

The tears, the hurt, & all of the pain.

All of these things will eventually drive me insane.

I know that so much is out there for me other than you.

But for some reason I try to make what we have do.

Why do I stay here?

Why do I still care?

Why don’t I just walk away & finally part ways with you?

Through all of the things that I have done for you.

I still wasn’t good enough. I wasn’t the best for you.

How could you hurt me if you really cared?

If you really loved me you never would of broke my heart into two.

Over & over we pick up the pieces, but my heart never seems to heal.

At this point I don’t believe that it could be mended back together again.

Should I follow my heart & stay with the person whose “suppose to have changed”?

Or should I finally find the strength this time to try & get over you?

BOTH ARE WRITTEN FROM THE VERY BOTTOM OF MY HEART

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

Tue, 04 Jul 2006 05:02:37 GMT

Happy

4th

All !!!

xoxo

Sunday, June 04, 2006

Sun, 04 Jun 2006 02:31:03 GMT

Look Wh[y]!

Its my handy Man! =p

Thursday, May 25, 2006

Thu, 25 May 2006 16:47:48 GMT

MAKEUP!!! COSMETICS!! SWAPPING!!! CLICK HERE!!!

http://swapcosmetics.com/

Finally I update. This will be a quickie! Mostly pix. But I will give you a little a update on life. Life is great how better could it be?! Well last weekend we went to DISNEY WORLD!!! Yes, Disney world! We went to both Magic Kingdom & Disney Quest! While there we also we went to the most awesome outlet ever! Fendi, Dior, A/X, Versace, Coach, BeBe, CCO, And many many more stores! Man, that was so cool! Anyways heres the pictures from Disney oh yes also last night we hit up Venue! Can you guys beleve it we finally went out! 2 years! Man, even though we were only there a few hours if even! Well I will leave you all with all of my wonderful many pictures! I hope that all is well with everyone!

Where we stayed

Where we stayed again

Ethan in the pool for the first time loving it!

Quinn loving the pool as well

Daddy & Ethan in the pool

Family picture in the pool thanks to the nice lady taking the picture

Grrrr..... I'm a Pirate!

Disney Quest

Ethan knocking out at Quest

Look at these lego people taller than me!

All you can eat Lobsters!!!

Me & Ethan again...

Me & my little ones in the Villas

Ethan knocked out at the end of the day

Welcome to Disney World

Us & Baloo

Peter Pan & Wendy w/Quinn

The kiddies w/ Aladdin & Jasmine

And of course I had to get one in!

I really had to wait 45 minutes for this picture!

Us taking a pix w/the people dancing in the streets

Cinderella's Castle that REALLY disappoited me!!!

The parade!

More parade pix

The night parade pictures

And more

And the fireworks!!!

Once again knocking out!

Quinn w/Stitch hat!

Quinn knocked out!

Isn't this cool!

Us at a Dim Sum Place trying to get something to eat!

My little Ethan Chillaxin'

The Wonderful outlet!

We can drive mommy!

In the pool at night again

My cutie

and again

My other cutie!

Ethan's not scared of anything!

Isn't this the biggest playland ever!!!

WTH is this! At a rest area!!!

Me & Papi finally a night out!

Starting the night off! =p

Me & Ms. Judy

Me, Vy, & Serena

Lien, Serena, Myself, & Thi

Once again us ladies! Myself again, Yvonne, Serena, Lien, & Thi

What is this? Can you tell me what this looks like?

Us ladies having fun! What a fun short night!

Well to next entry xoxo

Sunday, April 23, 2006

Sun, 23 Apr 2006 07:25:28 GMT

Okay time to update again! So let's inlighten you all on my life since I last posted! Anything new....? Nope! Just the same ole same. Being a wifey, mommy, and doing the makeup thingy! Boy oh boy do I love this swapping thing! I recently found another site as well besides MakeUpAlley.Com The site is so nice, but then not that many people know about it so there is not that much to swap for. I just posted all of my things up there hoping to find someone that wants my unwanted junk! One woman's unwanted items can be another's treasure!!! =p hehe....Well, I finally ordered my traincase from Sephora today! I opened my other case this morning (which is to small for all my makeup so therefore I have to set my pigment sideways to fit them all) and I saw that a few of my pigments were leaking out the jars!!! I was so @&*#$!!! I was like I am ordering my case now!!! =D So I ordered it I can't wait for it to come in! It'll be kinda empty at first, but I am waiting for a package from Singapore to come in containing lotsa asian brand makeup including a MAC asian exclusive FLOWERING QUAD!!! Man I am so excited to get these and all swapped for a few BEBE tops that I never wear!!! Who ever thought swapping would ever be so grand! Anyways enough about swapping! Well, I went to the MAC counter store today @ Esplanade Mall & once again I got bad service from this freaking chick there! Man I was so pissed! First of all she doesn't know her makeup well to be working at MAC! She was arguing with me that an eye shadow that I was looking for was not an eye shadow that it probally was a pigment! Come on now. Look at me I have lotsa pigments I know my pigments! I told her that I have like 60 different color pigments & she looks at me like ya right what ever! Then she's like maybe you are talking about Lily White Pigment. The color that just came out in the Sweetie Cakes Collection. I told her no I just told her that I bought like 6 jars (2 of each) from that collection! She once again looks at me stupid! And then says what you bought so many for? So I told her that I sell them on Ebay. Then she like flips out & tells me that it is a federal offense to do that & that the F.B.I. is investigating that right now!!! Whatever Bitch. I can sell MAC products on Ebay as long as I am not claiming that they are my Products made by me! I straight up told her F&#$ You!!! I was so P.O.'ed! Man I asked the other salesperson if they work on commision there because I buy from MAC like once a week at least. She told me no they don't & she apoligized for the other girls rude behavior! So if you guys ever go to the MAC counter @ Esplanade Mall Beware! =p I rather take my business to Lakeside now!!!! Enough about makeup!!! Well, little Ethan is crawling all around now! Man is he fast! He's starting to pull hisself up too! Man time flys! 8 months old soon! And Quinn is getting so big too! We finally bought him a bike last week & dang thing was missing the training wheels in the box!!! So I went back to Toys R Us & they told me that they couldn't do anything about it besides order the wheels from the where the bike was Manufactored & call me when they come in. So poor Quinn has a bike that he can't even ride! It's just sitting in the garage! That's about it that has been going on in my life......Family & Makeup! LoL! Well hope that everyone is doing well!

Until next entry....xoxo

*My Bunnie Boi*

Aren't I a handsome little fella?!

This seems tasty let me try this!

I was right this is yummy!!!

HaHaHa I Got it!!!!

The bunnie had no chance with me!!!

Check it out!!!

Sunday, April 09, 2006

Sun, 09 Apr 2006 03:23:08 GMT

Okay Okay I am finally updating!!! I know that I been slacking, but dang man Ethan is a hand full!!!! Hmmm how has life been since my last update. Pretty good actually. Wow i just had to click on my page to see what was the date on my last post! OMG it has been over a month!!! haha.... Well I finally took lil Ethan to take his picture & also his Easter bunny pictures too. They came out so cute!!!! I wish that I had a scanner to scan them haha ghetto way I will try to take a picture of them with my camera haha! Anyways here is lots of pictures for all of you guys enjoyment! Oh yeah, guess what man!? I registered for the baby thingy at Clearview mall a while back & I woke up to late to go. Well I preregistered for a drawing for a carseat giveaway. Well I figured that you had to be there to get the prize. Well the other day I checked the mail & Lucky ass Serena had two freaking packages! Man I was thinking shit I want a package! Then I walked to my room & I heard ding-dong. Like always dang Fed-Ex rings the bell then runs off into the truck. I opened up the door & as I saw Fed-Ex man running off I saw a big ass box in the door way! It was a carseat! Man I was like WTH is this? At first I thought that Cuong bought that & shipped it to the house, but then I was like no he wouldnt pay shipping on a carseat! Well then I noticed on the invoice that a company bought it & shipped it to me. The only thing that I could see that happened is that I won that drawing & since I didn't show up & they mailed it to me! I was so happy! Now I don't have to put out that money on a carseat. =D Anyways besides that I haven't been doing much. Other than my addictions to MAC pigments & Makeup Alley. I haven't done much. If any of you guys ever want to check out my account there my user name is SnuggleBunnie82. Other than that I just have been spending time with my three guys. Ethan has grown so much he's crawling all over the floor now! 7 months on the 10th man I don't want him to grow this fast man I enjoy it & all. But I like him little bitty. I don't want him to grow anymore! I want my little boys to stay little. Anyways I feeling like makeup alley right about now. So until next entry all you guys take care!

The Carseat that showed up at my front door!

My little Ethan starting to hold his body up! =D

Ethan & his walker!

Ethan crawling around!

Ethan once again!

One more time....

Now with brother!

And last but least my pigments!!!

xoxo

Edit: BTW I finished watching The Sad Love Story ages ago! OMG 5 Stars! That shit was so sad & good! Then recently I watched stairway to heaven that was so good too! I cried so0o0o0o much!!!! I think that you all should watch these!

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

Wed, 01 Mar 2006 04:08:26 GMT

Well, it's been a while since I updated & posted pictures of my little ones. I finally decided to post pictures & type a quick entry. These days I have been so busy doing the mommy to do list & when I have time I am watching my Korean Soaps! The only online stuff I really do is Ebaying.....Well life over here I can say is getting better I finally got my car back! Man does it drive nice =) I missed my baby =D I just been spending time & home with my little ones & watching them grow up so fast! Ethan's going on 6 months soon! Can you believe it half of a year has passed by already! I wish that I could just keep him the age he is now before he starts teething & all! =p I had a nice time for Valentine's Day. Papi & I celebrated that & our 2 year wedding anniversary together. I had lots of fun it was nice having time to just the two of us & getting out of the house! Well not to much here to update on....I'll just leave you guys with the pictures! Until my next boring entry...

xoxo

My little cutie!

Ethan enjoying his hands once more!

The Guys of my Life

Lookie I am Holding Little Brother

Don't you think he's BIG as me!?

Ethan & his new Highchair

Ethan sitting up alone!

Ethan w/a little birthday hat!

Ethan & the Birthday girl!

Shows that I watched & My Ratings: (Listed in order of most liked!)

Full House *****

Only You ****

Love Letter ***

Sad Love Story (Currently Watching)

The title fits the show though I have cried so much already!

xoxo